"Undress to your underpants and put on this gown..."

Well, today was the day of my annual physical.  Of course many of you who were following my blog know that I had every intention of wearing boxers to my physical in spite of the implied implication that since I was spanked I would be required to wear briefs to my physical.

First off, for the record.  If you read my post "Boxes and Boxers" you will note that it was my wife who made the statement that if I was not spanked before my next physical I could wear boxers, but if she did spank me she would make me wear briefs.  Well at no point did I every agree to this.  In fact I even made the comment that if I were to be spank free I could wear boxers without having to hide the fact from her.  That did not happen.

So to those who said I made an agreement and should be a man and keep my word, I must point out that I gave no word.  I simply acknowledged what my wife's plans were but I never accepted the challenge.  To those who simply feel that I must submit to my wife at all costs, I get what you are saying, but like I said before.  I would rather take a private spanking and accept the consequences rather than have to show up at the doctor's wearing those stupid tighty whities.  I know, many of you feel I am making a big deal out of nothing, but I feel the way I feel.  I can't help but feel self conscience in the briefs, but it is an emotional issue and not an intellectual decision.

At no point prior to my appointment did my wife "remind"  me of her threat to force me to wear briefs to my next appointment.  She had left before I left for the morning having remained silent on the issue.  So yes, I wore boxers.  I arrived home before her having left early to make my appointment and by the time she came home I had already changed into briefs.

I don't know why she remained silent on this, perhaps her incentive to correct my behavior failed and she wanted to conveniently forget to avoid the conflict.  Perhaps she legitimately forgot.  Either way I got to wear my boxers to the appointment.

Now, if she were to suddenly remember and ask me what I wore, I think at this point I would admit to wearing the boxers.  I really don't think she would spank me for wearing them, but even if she did, I am still better off being spanked in private rather than wearing the briefs.

For those who were hoping I would finally be forced to wear the briefs to my doctor's appointment, sorry that I don't have a story to share about how embarrassed I was sitting on the crinkly paper in my tighty whities while the nurse remarked that my pulse and blood pressure seemed to be a little high.  

I don't know what is going to happen next, but it looks like I won this round.

Boxer Backlash

First off, I really want to thank everyone for commenting as it helps me think through all this.  My last post seemed to generate a lot of comments on my admission that I plan to wear boxers at my upcoming physical exam.  Since the majority of the comments were the same I thought I would respond to them in general rather than individually.  Sorry for not responding to each one, but I thought this would be more efficient.  Should you wish to further comment, please do and I will respond individually as appropriate.

First off, let me reiterate my side of the story.  While I maintain that I do not consent to or desire being spanked, I can reluctantly acknowledge that I can sometimes be a bit of a jerk and 90% of the time I can understand what behavior led me to being spanked.  Again, understanding is not acceptance in the true sense of the word. but I find submitting to a spanking easier than doing what it would take to stop them once and for all, i.e. leave my wife.

Now, regarding my underwear choice.  First, I don't mean to be disrespectful, but I really don't care what kind of underwear you wear.  I don't care if your wife makes you wear panties, thongs, jockstraps or whatever.  I am sorry if you feel my wife should make me wear panties, get over it.  This is not about you and your fantasies.  This is about me and my wife.

Talking nasty to my wife, failing to meet my commitments, being rude to guests, I get it, it is bad behavior.  My wife chooses to spank me for that kind of behavior and that is just the way it is.  I get that.  My underwear choice?  That is by no stretch of the imagination bad behavior.  That is her imposing an unfair restriction on me that serves no purpose except to make me feel uncomfortable. I know you all feel I am making a big deal out of this and I should just get over it, but a personal preference for one style of underwear over another is not bad behavior.  Now, because she is my wife, I accepted her personal preference and have worn the briefs in deference to her preference, but I don't see any reason whatsoever to have to wear them where others can see them.  If I wear boxers once a year to the doctors, that is not bad behavior and I will not be forced to do something like that.  I have reluctantly accepted the spankings and the briefs so long as they remain a private matter between my wife and I.

I know you are all hoping that my wife finds out and punishes me for it, but I don't see how she will find out.  I am alone in the exam room with the doctor and/or nurse and they are professionals and will not talk about what happens in the exam room without my permission.  It is as simple as that.  So I will be wearing my boxers to the exam and  I know I will get away with it, so that is that.

Now, why should I have to wear briefs just because my wife says so.  She prefers plain white panties and I have never questioned her choice because unlike her, I feel she should be allowed to wear what makes her comfortable.  What if I were to tell her I want her to only wear a purple thong?  Do you think she should wear it just because I told her that is what I want her to wear?  If she chose to wear one to please me that would be her decision, but if she then said she was going to wear plain white panties to the doctor, than that would be the end of the discussion.

I feel the same way about this and I feel very strongly about it.  In fact I feel so strongly about it that I am even willing to risk a private spanking (though I am confident I will go undetected) if it means I get to wear boxers to my physical.  My mind is made up.  As for speculation about having to wear panties or something more embarrassing, I am not going to consider those hypothetical questions.  I have enough trouble just dealing with my briefs.

Anyway, I hope I did not come across as rude, but this is an issue I feel very passionate about.  I just wanted to make my thoughts and position clear.  Thanks.

Yes, I am still here. Yes, I am still spanked

First off.  I wanted to apologize for not writing sooner.   As there were a lot of questions about he relationship between my wife and I, I wrote a hypothetical interview with my wife where I answered certain questions based on the things she has said to me, told me or that I inferred over the years.

Let's just say that while I hope everyone found the post helpful in understanding the dynamics between myself and my wife, I found the post very emotional.  As I read and re-read what I wrote and reflect on the reality that it represents I find myself confused about what it all means.

It is clear that the only way I can end the spankings is to leave my wife.  I want the spankings to end, but I don't want to leave my wife.  In theory, the spankings will end if my behavior improves once and for all, but no matter how hard I try I always seem to screw up.

Yes, I did get spanked since my last post.  It was a quick and brief spanking for yelling at my wife.  I am human I get angry.  I know it was wrong to yell at my wife.  If we were to simply talk through our differences she would listen and respect what I had to say, but the second I started to get nasty and mean with her, my pants came down and well, I guess you know the rest.  I was angry so it took a little while for the tears to flow, but she continued to spank me until I started crying.   I don't think the spankings will every end.

Now, the appointment has been made for my annual physical.  It will take place after work on the 16th of this month.  She never mentioned forcing me to wear briefs, but I have made up my mind that I will be wearing boxers.  I have even planned to sneak a pair in my jacket if necessary and will change into them when I am left alone to undress for my physical.

If my wife is going to continue to spank me and make me wear briefs than the least I can do is hold out as long as possible to keep this all a secret.  While I have been unsuccessful in keeping myself spank free at least for now they remain a private affair.  I still hope that I can keep Sarah from finding out and make sure no matter what I don't give my wife the slightest excuse to spank me in front of Sarah.

Sorry for the quick and simple post, I have been too emotional to write in more detail, but I will try to keep everyone updated.  Also, I replied back to the comments you have been generous enough to make.  Thanks.