Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Scared to Death

Since I wrote about my last spanking I received a few comments that really have me terrified.

Here is one:

I mostly agree that you are going to be spanked in front of a witness soon probably your wife’s friend and most likely your wife has cleared it with her already and may have planned to do it for the last spanking you describe.

Here is another:
Given all of the above conditions, I suggest accepting, as best you can, the strong likelihood that your bare bottom will be over your wife's knee, bouncing, as she uses her hairbrush to teach you a lesson in front of her friend. 

When I read these comments my heart started racing and I have been terrified ever since.  I find myself walking around the house my stomach in knots and butterflies.   I would like to think that I can avoid this somehow.   I am shaking even as I am writing this.  I have come to realize that I have reluctantly come to accept the spankings from my wife, but this is not something I want to have to go through in front of anyone else, let alone her friend.   It may be possible that her friend already knows that she spanks me, but I still want to live in ignorant bliss.  I cried like a little boy when I thought she was going to spank me in front of her last time.  I just can't imagine going through this for real.  Like I said I was up all night heart pounding in my chest thinking what it would be like.  Would I cry?  Could I hold it in.  Would she see my small shriveled penis or just my bottom?  Maybe my wife would spank me over my pants or at least my underpants?  Would she spank me in the bedroom or right there in the living room?  God I am so scarred.   I began crying quietly  as these comments went through my mind.  I can feel my bottom clench tightly every time the words "you are going to be spanked in front of a witness soon"  Played over and over again in my head.  

Well while I thank you for the honesty of your advice, I hope to god you are wrong and I swear I am going to be on my best behavior and my pants and briefs will stay up and my backside will escape unharmed.   I want your honesty, but please give me some hope that a witnessed spanking is not inevitable.   

I reread these powerful comment over and over and tremble every time I read and reflect.

Since you have little reason to believe that you'll be able to maintain your composure, I think you should be as warm and friendly to this woman as you possibly can. As this is apparently your fate, don't do it in hopes of avoiding punishment. Do it for the sake of having as sympathetic an audience possible. There's no reason to add to her delight.
I can't believe it.  A tear just fell onto the computer as my eyes watered from re-reading the above comment. 
  As this is apparently your fate, don't do it in hopes of avoiding punishment.

15 comments:

  1. Hey, I wrote the fifth comment on the previous post. It wasn't intended to have quite this effect on you, but I really do think that if you aren't willing to draw a line, say this is unacceptable and hold to it at any cost, then your best course of action is to somehow or another make your peace with this highly likely possibility and be as warm and as friendly as you can towards her friend who will soon be seeing you, at least once perhaps regularly, in a position of extreme vulnerability.

    As for whether or not you are "doomed", think back to when you were a child and the dire threats you sometimes heard parents make. I thought of them as two types. There was the parent who would never follow through, saying the words as though it was a magic spell, hoping they were enough to make the child behave as wished. Then there was the one who would follow through, and having told the child beforehand, would feel justified in carrying it out, because after all a "warning" was given. When they said it, they planned it, and it was merely a matter of finding an occasion. It's obvious which your wife is. That she gets some satisfaction, conscious or unconscious, from dealing with you like this doesn't make her bad or wrong. After all look at the messages you have implicitly sent her by your responses and your not having raised the issue.

    Look, I'm writing as someone who looks for this on the internet and maybe in real life. But still, I would reject this, situation and / or relationship, no matter how much I loved or trusted my partner. I can easily imagine the havoc a public spanking would wreck, and despite my attraction it would be no healthier for me than one where my partner felt they had the right to reach out and break one of my fingers whenever they were displeased. Your readers are largely unconcerned whether or not this is a good fit for you. And by good fit, I mean healthy. After all they are looking forward to your upcoming post, to be written after another two or three visits. You can't turn to the comments, and that includes this paragraph, to help you make that judgment.

    This comment, and believe it or not the prior one, are coming from a friendly place. Despite my prurient interest in the subject, I'm not the type to be invested in you losing hard if it doesn't in some way, at least at a later date, improve your life and your relationship.

    My earlier comment is vivid because you need to stop and get a real sense of where you're at. If you choose to stay with things as they are, leaving it at her discretion, then CHOOSE to do so and accept the worst case scenario. I would bet a paycheck, maybe two, that you'll have a much harder time dealing with the emotions brought out from being spanked in front of her friend, if it happens because you were passive when you wanted to act. If you choose to set boundaries you will have a difficult (but not impossible) task, perhaps that image will give you some staying power. Either way, accepting beforehand whatever your choice may entail will do you good.

    This is far too long, I suppose it just boils down to - take care of yourself. Do that. I hope you wind up feeling at peace with however things turn out.

    P.S. I usually think this sort of thing is bad advice, but maybe showing her your blog, as it is without editing, might be a useful part of the conversation. It's a pretty good expression of your thoughts and feelings on the subject. That said, don't consider it the whole conversation and think it's going to work some kind of magic for you.

    P.P.S. This could be counter productive as it may make you paranoid with or without cause, but I think you can learn something by the frequency of visits at your house. If she's coming by less often than in the past, your wife is unlikely to have told her anything. If she's visiting more than she has in the past, there's no information to glean. Keep your imagination in check.

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    1. Thanks. While your post did have me freaked out at first, I have calmed down since first reading it and feel better after our little Pillow Talk, if you haven't read that post yet.

      No, her friend does not seem to be coming over more often and I think I will pass on showing her this blog.

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  2. Just remember, little man, we control,everything, even you! You should man up, we think your a "sissy" man are you? Where's the real man? Your scared to death? Your wife? I should talk too her, we have little girl who's afraid of a real sexy woman? "Really" little man? Or girl? " hee,"hee Sarah and friends!

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    1. Thanks Sarah, I was so moved by your teasing that I named my wife's friend after you in my latest post. I hope you appreciated the tribute.

      Of course Sarah isn't her real name so I hope to god I don't accidentally call her Sarah the next time she is over.

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  3. I seem to be the dissenting voice. Remember, I'm not at all against consensual disciplinary relationships, but this doesn't seem consensual, not to me. Being afraid to stop it, not knowing how to stop it, is not the same thing as giving implied consent.

    Nothing has to keep happening that you don't want to happen. It is never too late to turn this thing around. Or, as others have suggested, accept it-- but only if you can do so happily, without feeling diminished by it. Your graphic description tells me you do feel diminished by it, though.

    As to your rudeness to your wife, this has to change. But is it only true that she punishes you because you are rude to her? Or can it be that you are being rude to her because you resent her punishing you? (Not that that's any excuse.) This cycle has to be broken -- and you can be the first one to break it. Be respectful, not rude. Talk to her the way you wish to be addressed yourself.

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    1. For whatever reason, I think I am learning to accept it. Not because I enjoy it, but perhaps because after our pillow talk I was at least given a way to stop it. Change my behavior. Funny enough, she may decide I need to be spanked and I may not consent to it even if I submit to it, but I actually feel a little empowered. There is cause and effect. No bad behavior, no spanking.

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  4. I don't think you need to be as scared as you are about being spanked in front of your wife's friend. I can see that over your most recent posts you've come to terms with your private spankings, on the basis that your wife and you have a great marriage in every other way and you are submissive and accepting of these spankings.
    Your wife has threatened to spank you in front of this friend only if you misbehave or are rude to her. The way I see it, if you can resist being rude to her, you have no reason to worry. If this woman is someone who you feel you cant talk to civilly then tell your wife you'd rather go out for a walk or drive while she's visiting so that you are simply not there when she is.
    Once again everything comes down to communicating with her. Tell her you worry that you'll say the wrong thing in front of her friend because you are nervous about being spanked or talk to your wife about being absent from the house when the friend calls in. You don't have to worry about being spanked in front of her, you control when you get spanked or not by your actions, your wife does not look for reasons to spank you!
    Best wishes
    Vianne

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    1. You are right, she does not look for reasons to spank me. I did talk to her and there is cause and effect. She may be the effect but I am the cause. I feel a little in control now and that makes me feel better.

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  5. Your fate is in your own hands. She is not going to spank you if you don’t break an established rule including rudeness to her friends. That’s something my wife always stresses to me that it’s up to me if I get spanked or not and when I find myself in trouble it was me that made the decision to behave that way. It seems you are exactly in the same situation. You know what will get you spanked and you know how to avoid it. You are not a child (even though you might act like one). You are an adult that can control his own behavior and if you choose not to behave then at some level you are asking your wife to punish you. You control your own fate and despite what some commenters said it is not inevitable she will spank you in front of a witness or even ever again. I think your wife would be just fine putting her brush away permanently if you straightened out your behavior.

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    1. Thanks. I think she would be perfectly wiling to put her brush away. She gave me a challenge and it is up to me to meet that challenge.

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  6. I'm a man, your a man? Broads don't control me! Got dat! Respect my balls! Aw uze Broads! Got dat! I wear the pants! Uze broads are in skirts! Got dat! Joe Blou!

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  7. My friend, I too been checking out your blogs, especially those two broads, dat told uze to man up! She won't let uze wear boxers? Why? She wears flannel pjs not sexy for me! Be a man? Got dat! Uze should spank her! Go for it! Joe Blou!

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  8. And the Oscar goes too "Pillow Talk" I'm honored to be in your storyline, I'm not crazy about Joe Blow! Calling me and other women " Broads" really Joe? Kathy has some nice ideas, mister x? Not sure that name suits a guy? Who's been crying, why? I didn't like what you said about me! I'm getting off, with my ideas on you? I would still like to know the reason you wife is spanking you? I think you cheated on her with a young sexy girl or young man? "Miss wussy"! That's gonna be your nickname, when you grow some balls? "Little Miss Wussy" next time I'll tell you a story about me dating a single man, found out he was married? And didn't tell me? Revenge can be a bitch? He learned his lesson! Not by choice either? Thanks sweetie, for my quotes too in your blog! " Sarah" ps. You should give Amanda credit for her rhyming poetry! Got that "Wittle Miss Wussy"!

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  9. See, I was right. You are getting off projecting your ideas on to me. Cheat on my wife? If you read my last post (which I posted before you made this comment) you will see that I would never cheat on my wife. You obviously had a bad experience and I am sorry for that but not all men are like that and I resent the generalization. I also clearly stated the reasons why my wife spanks me, but again, you would rather project your own ideas onto my situation.

    OK, I will admit, Joe Blows ideas seem a little harsh, but perhaps he is driven by dealing with women like you who are automatic man haters. Perhaps you two should get together and start your own blog. Should be interesting.

    As for me, OK, I get spanked by my wife, does that make a wimp? Perhaps a little, but that is between me and her. Your hang ups are yours not mine. Of course that said, I still welcome your comments, perhaps venting your feelings here will help you as they did me. Good luck to you.

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