Dazed and Confussed

I recently posted part 1 of the story about the spanking I received after having a fight with my mother.  I must admit I was a bit surprised by the comments I received so far about that story.  It is unclear if the comments I am receiving are from the same person(s) or not, but I must admit I was taken back buy the hostility I received.

As I have shared stories about my wife and how she has slowly got me to the point where I unwillingly submit to her spankings and other mild punishments the majority of comments that I receive are along the lines of "grown a pair", "put her over your knee", "stop whining", "stand up to her", "don't let her push you around", etc. etc.  Oh yes there are the occasional comments saying I deserve it and such but the majority have been encouraging me to stand up to my wife and be a man.

Now I related a story about my pushy mother who comes over to my house, insults me and my wife and treats me like a child.  Now, unlike my wife who has a claim to our household, my mother has no claim to our house or how we furnish or decorate it.  So when I "stand up to her" and "be a man" and ask her to leave I am criticized for it.

Now my wife has already spanked me for this and I will finish the story and share part 2, but I am confused as to why the same people who are telling me to "grow a pair" when I submit to my wife appear to be the same people who are now saying "your wife should buy a cane." and "you got what you deserved." and "your mother should have taken you over her knee."

Now I get it, you should have the utmost respect for your mother and I do respect her, but should a grown man have to put up with insults from his own mother in his own house?  Why is it that when my wife spanks me because I talk back to her I need to "grow a pair" but when I remind my mother that I am an adult and she needs to respect me in my house I need to "grow up."  and when my wife spanks me for that she is applauded?

Anyway, I will finish the story as promised, but so far the comments have made me feel a little ashamed of what I did.  It was my intention to share this story and then share my feelings about what happened to me the last time I "stood up for myself" and "grew a pair."  Apparently instead of getting support and encouragement I now appear as immature and childish and it seems as if my follows now feel I am getting the spankings I deserve.  It even seems like some feel I have to be punished all over again for this offense.

Now I am even more confused than ever.  Anyway, I will finish up the story hopefully in a few days, but again, I now have something new to think about.  Is there something wrong with me?  I have been trying to relate these stories as accurate as I can recall them but am I missing something in my telling that makes me a flawed person who needs to be spanked to remain decent?

I feel I try hard to do the right things and be a good and responsible person and husband.  I was spanked as a child when I deserved it and I think it helped me to develop a good character, but I would have thought that I have outgrown spankings.  My mother stopped spanking me at 12, so why does my wife feel its necessary now that I am an adult?  Am I missing something?  In some ways I do feel the same as when I was a child but my wife is not my mother.

Perhaps this story revealed the fundamental character flaws that I fail to see myself.  I want the spankings to stop, but not sure exactly how.  I am so dazed and confused.