Saturday, March 29, 2014

Out Of Gas

Well since I have been fortunate enough to have been spank free for a while now I thought I would share a story of one of my earlier spankings.  I eluded to it in a previous post and I did get a request to relate the story.

It all started one night when I was going to go out and meet some of my friends.  We were chatting at dinner and my wife made the comment that her car needed gas and that when I left she was going to go out and fill it up.  I thought that since I was going out anyway I could take her car and fill it up for her and save her the trip.

"Are you sure?" she asked,  "I need to leave early in the morning and I have a meeting I can't be late for."

A little insulted by the question I replied back, "No problem there is a gas station I pass on the way.  I will just stop and fill it up there."

"Well OK then, but make sure it gets filled, I won't have time in the morning."

So that was that.  Well it must be obvious to all you readers what happened.  First, when I passed the gas station on the way to my friends house, it was very busy, I guess it was still rush hour, and there were cars lined up waiting to fill up.  I figured by the time I was on my way back it would be later and I would not have to wait too long, so I decided to fill it up on the way back.

Well, I had a good time at my friends house (and no I didn't drink, I am not a big drinker and never drink and drive) and didn't leave too late, but by then I was tired and of course had forgotten about filling up the car.   When I got home my wife was already in bed.  She did mention she was getting up early.  When I woke up the next morning she was already gone.  I went downstairs and found a note on the table reminding me she had to leave early for her meeting and that she would see me when she got home at the regular time.  So I went on with my day never giving a second thought to the fact that her car was low on gas.

Well I came home that night, making it in before her so I changed out of my work clothes and sat down to watch some TV before she came home and then we would cook dinner together.  It was about 20 minutes later when she walked through the door and I could tell by the way she threw her car keys down on the counter she was not happy.  I looked up and she was just staring at me in disbelief.

"Did you gas up my car last night?"  she asked. I could hear the suppressed rage in her voice.

"Oh, I guess I forgot."  I replied as if it were no big deal.

"How could you forget?  It was the last thing we discussed when you left.  Did it even occur to you to think why you were in my car?  I don't understand how you could simply forget."  Her voice was rising now.

I explained how the gas station was busy when I first passed it and then I simply forgot when I was driving back.

"Do you know I ran out of gas on the highway?  I had to call roadside assistance and I was about an hour late for my meeting.  All because you couldn't remember to fill up the car."

She was angry now and I can't say I can blame her, but by the same token, I felt resentful that she put the blame all on me.  I thought we were a team.  After all I offered to fill it up to save her a trip and this is how she thanks me?  I realize now the fatal flaw in my thinking, but at the time it was move mouth before engaging brain.  My fate was sealed when I fired back.

"You know, " I started with a slightly accusatory tone, "if you simply checked the gas before you drove off you would have known the car didn't get filled up.  You could have taken my car and you would have made the meeting.  I then would have filled up your car when I took it to work. So this is just as much your fault as mine."

My argument was perfectly logical of course.  There was contributing negligence on her part.  How could she have simply jumped in and drove off without noticing the gas was low.  Sure I forgot, but give me a break.  She drives off, never checks the gas, runs out of gas on the highway and suddenly it is all my fault that she failed in her responsibility as a driver to check the condition of her car.  In my mind this was just as much her fault as mine and I am sure there are readers who will agree with me.

"What!" she actually yelled at the insolence of my statement.  "How dare you.  I was all set to go out and fill up the car myself.  It was YOUR idea to take it and fill it up.  I asked you are you ABSOLUTELY sure you will fill it up and you said yes.  I reminded you of the importance of filling up the car and you assured me that it would get done.   If I had did this myself, the car would have been filled.  I trusted you to do this at YOUR suggestion and it did not get done.  Now you have the nerve to stand there and tell me it is my fault! How dare you."

Well, so much for my argument.  Boy was she angry.  She turned her back to me and  I heard her taking a few deep breaths.  She then turned back to me a little calmer.

"What am I going to do with you?  When are you going to grow up?"  She then walked out and returned just a few seconds later with the hairbrush.   I cringed the second I saw it.

"No honey, not that  I'm sorry" I begged.

"Why is it you are never sorry until I get the brush?  Are you sorry that you screwed up or are you just sorry that I have to spank you?"

I didn't know how to answer that.  Of course I was sorry I was about to be spanked.  Deep in my mind I still felt she was partially responsible.  Yes I screwed up, but I screwed up trying to do something nice for her.  I didn't think I should have been spanked for that.  I was trembling with fear wanting to make this stop but not sure how.

I heard the order clear as a bell, "pull your pants and underpants down." but I didn't move a muscle.  This was one of the earlier spankings and at this point had not fully accepted my circumstances.

"Can't we resolve this some other way?  How can I make this up to you?"

"You can make this up to me by being obedient and pulling your pants and underwear down." she replied, calm and assertive now, the anger slowly leaving her voice.

"Honey, don't spank me, please don't spank me.  I am sorry, truly I am."  I couldn't believe my own ears.  Here I was a gown man trembling before my wife who stood before me with a hairbrush and I was pleading with her not to spank me.  I still didn't move.  I know a real man would have told her off, laughed, grabbed the brush out of her hand, stormed out, but no I just stood there like a wimp begging her not to spank me.  No wonder she had the confidence to do it.  I didn't have the balls to stop it.

She grew impatient and reached out to the waistband of my jeans and pulled me towards her.  I did reach down and grab her wrists, but she ignored them and simply started unbuttoning and unzipping my jeans as I continued to beg her to stop and reconsider.

My pleas fell on deaf ears as she began pulling my jeans down all the way to my ankles and she breaks free of my grip on her hands.  I felt a shiver as the cool air hit my bare legs and a tingle in my backside as my briefs covered bottom became exposed.  As usual, my penis was tight and shriveled barely making a bulge at all in the front of my briefs.  Of course my wife has seen me naked lots of times both soft and shriveled as well as erect, but this was different.  She was not stripping me for sex.  She was going to spank me like a little child.  It just felt too humiliating for me and my penis was going to look extra small when she finally pulled my briefs down.

With my pants at my ankles I was hunched over slightly half trying to retrieve my pants, but it was no use.  Soon her hands were in the waist band of my tighty whites and they were now making the trek towards my jeans.  She stopped just below my knees.  Sure enough there was my little penis barely poking out from my pubic hair.  I hated how I looked when I was like this.  If we were having sex it would have been erect and looking much bigger then the pathetic little stub it looked like now.  She made no comment about it or seem to notice it.  She was all business and immediately began pulling me towards the couch as I hobbled over, my pants restricting my ability to walk properly.  When we got to the couch she had no difficulty in pulling me over her lap and held me tight with her left hand.

She wasted no time in bringing the hairbrush crashing down on my backside.  I yelped in pain and tried to get off her lap.  I did manage to get the lower half of my body off her lap, but I was unable to break the top half free from the strong grip she had on me.  Again the brush came down and I yelped again.  Realizing I was unable to completely break away I began to beg and plead with her to stop.  She delivered a few more hits before taking a moment to grab my legs and pull them back up across her lap and then she quickly brought the brush back down across my backside.  Now this was an earlier spanking so while at this time I did not out and out cry like I have been doing lately, I did yelp and scream with each blow and my eyes did get very watery.  If the spanking had continued just a little longer, it is entirely possible I might have started to out and out cry, but just when I felt like I was on the verge of a totally losing it she finally stopped.

I laid across her lap letting the pain subside and trying to bring myself back from the brink.  When she felt I was finally calm enough she let me get up.  Standing caused a slight increase in the pain and I instinctively moved my hands to rub my bottom before realizing how exposed I felt with my shriveled penis inches from her face.  I reach down to pull my briefs back up but she stopped me for just a moment.

"Do you understand why I had to spank you?"

To be honest, at this point I really was not sure why she had to spank me, but I felt so helpless and vulnerable in front of her like this that I simply nodded yes.

"I sincerely hope that I don't have to spank you again, but I will if I have to.  Now get dressed."

I finished pulling the briefs over my sore bottom before bending down to retrieve the jeans at my ankles and gingerly sliding them carefully over my butt.  I tried to be nonchalant as I ran my hand across my eyes to dry the water that had built up in them during the spanking.  I was reluctant to think of them as tears but I guess that is what they were.

And so ended one of the many spankings I have received from my wife.  Not the first, not the last, but definitely one of the memorable spankings.  It was not until later that night when I was in bed thinking about the events that led up to the spanking that I realized what a jerk I had been.  She was right.  I should have just gassed up the stupid car, but when I failed to do so I certainly should have just said I was sorry and never have attempted to put the blame on her.  I can't help but wonder that if I just said I was sorry and tried to make it up to her if I would have avoided the spanking or was I getting spanked no matter what?  I could still feel the heat in my butt against the cool fabric of my pajamas as I laid there on my stomach feeling embarrassed and humiliated, reliving the scene from earlier that evening, imagining how pathetic I must have looked, pants and briefs down being dragged by my wife, shriveled little penis between my legs.  I shut my eyes at the thoughts and felt them water up once again.  Yes, water up, for certainly these were not tears, but this was not my last spanking and the tears and crying would come at a future date.  For now, I just drifted off to sleep with watery eyes and a warm bottom and hoped this would all be forgotten in the morning.





18 comments:

  1. So from your last post, we the readers of your blog have to assume that you have come to terms with this arrangement
    and you are alright with having your wife spank you(and in front of others as well). And if that is what you want
    then i think that's great. But you don't sound like this is what you want. You say you don't get anything from being
    spanked and you and your wife obviously have never sat down and discussed it. So why put up with it? if you really
    don't want this to happen, then tell her so. Communication is key to these kind of relationships and from what you've
    said so far it's obvious to me that you are not communicating you feelings and desires with her. Is she physically
    bigger and/or stronger than you? Are you afraid she'll leave you? What is stopping you from just walking out of
    the house until she cools off? What is the problem.........she's your wife.......you
    should be able to talk about anything with her. And she should, as your wife, respect your wishes on this matter. but
    since you accept this from her and now she feels that it is OK with you for her to spank you. Perhaps she is waiting
    for you to stand up to her to prove to her you are a real man.......who knows? Point is your acceptance of this is
    only going to make it hard to stop as time goes on. How long do you think it will be before she spanks you for
    leaving the toilet seat up? Or forgeting to do the dishes or take out the garbage? And how long befroe you're
    wearing womens panties just because it's easier for her to wash? In other words where do you
    see it ending? Do you honestly believe that she won't take as much control of you as she can? And again if that's
    what you want then i hope you're happy. What i think you should do is sit down and have a talk with her and tell
    her that you don't want to be spanked anymore and see how she reacts to this. If she doesn't immediatly get up and
    bust your ass then you are half way there. At that point tell her she can't do that any more and you won't tolerate it.
    What is the worst that can happen by telling her this? She leaves you? She busts your ass? Sure it might throw a monkey
    wrench in her plans, but at least your butt isn't on fire. Does she control all the money?.......do you sign your
    paycheck over to her or is it direct deposited into her account which you can't get to? There is something other
    than your submissive side that is keeping you from putting an end to the spankings. Submission is a two way
    street and BOTH parties have to Consent. You are a submissive man not a doormat that she can walk all over.
    If your best freind were sitting there punching you in the arm would you just let him continue or would you
    tell him to stop?........and after you told him to stop and he didn't would you just take it? Your situation is
    no different than the above scenerio. In fact it's just about the same because if you really love you wife like
    you say you do(and i believe that you do) then she IS your best freind. And if she can't accept this then you
    have to ask yourself does she really love me as much as i do her? Personally i think she is a dominant and has
    played you from day 1. In an earlier post you stated that you asked her if she gets off on spanking you and
    she said "No, not really". Reading between the line she does actually enjoy this on some level. Either she
    was brought up in a Female led household or has had such a bad experience with men that this is what
    she's turned into. Either way not good for you until you put a stop to it.

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    1. I appreciate your comments. There are a lot of people who suggest that I should just say no to my wife. It sounds so easy to write that, but for me it is not that easy. No I do not sigh my paycheck over to her. She does make more than I do, but I make enough to support a modest living for myself. It is not about money. I confess I feel an emotional attachment to her and I know it sounds corny but I feel she is my true love and soulmate. I don't want to lose her. So while it is easy for someone to write on here, just say no, it really isn't that easy.

      As for your analogy of a friend punching me in the arm. Was he doing it for no reason? If I was acting like a jerk and he said he was going to punch me in the arm until I stopped? I bet you that happens a lot but you would shrug it off as guys just settling there differences man to man. I realize that I may be an embarrassment to the assertive men out there and I am sorry if I am a disgrace to my gender, but I am who I am.

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  2. I AGREE COMPLETELY with above poster!!!!!

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  3. Hi RT,

    Thanks for sharing your story. You have a thought provoking blog indeed. It appears the whole consensual aspect to your story is a real lightning rod for some folks.

    Getting an over the knee hair brush spanking hurts, but she is not really hurting you, so me the whole abuse angle to me is over stated by some of your readers. I'm sure there are many factors that contribute to your submitting to her in this way. That's part of what makes your blog interesting.

    I think there is a boy inside of most men that acts out from time to time and many wives are quick to remind us that when it occurs. That same boyish element also keeps us young and vibrant even as we age. The out of gas story is exactly that. Your rationalization for not filling it was irrational and immature. Given the "implied consent", you gave her at the beginning of your relationship (the groundings, etc.) she sees herself as your boss with the right to correct you as she sees fit.

    So big picture, if she just came home yelled at you and then gave you the silent treatment or one of the more typical wife retribution tactics you would have gotten away with a shitty move (not gassing her car as you described the story), and she would think your an asshole - which you were in this instance.

    Consensual or not you were punished and I bet that gives her a sense of control and the feeling that she is training you not to be a thoughtless jerk to your wife.

    So that said, I have a question for you. "Are the results of getting spanked for act of immaturity helping you in a meaningful way to be a more responsible man, and treat her an there's with respect?" Said another way, are the spanking working the way she intends them too, and are you a better man as a result?

    To me that is the real question consensual or not.

    KL

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    1. Thanks KL. You are right about the lightning rod. I realize for the strong willed men reading my blog I may be an embarrassment. I was never a King of my Castle, women should be seen and not heard type of guy. My wife is not bossy either she just has a few things that push her to spank me.

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    2. You didn't answer his question.

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    3. Sorry, if I had answered this question when it was originally posted I would have reluctantly said, yes, they are helping me focus on character flaws and avoid them to avoid getting spanked. I

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  4. Thank you for sharing the story!

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    1. You are welcome. Thanks for taking the time to comment. Even small comments let me know I am not writing to an empty audience.

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  5. After 20 years in a marriage of this type and having been over the foot of the bed or a chair for similar things many times, let me give you a little advice if I may.
    You know when you've crossed the line with her. There is a certain look she gives or a certain tone in her voice. There is a point of no return and you are going to get spanked (or dusted as my wife puts it) no matter what. When this happens all the begging and pleading in the world won't help. Just accept it and do as she says, when she says. Don't beg, don't argue, don't say anything, just drop them or what ever she tells you to do. Believe me, it will probably make it easier on you and her both.

    I found this out early on. I would watch her when she needed to spank her daughter she would tell her to go to her room, pull her pants down and wait for her. She never argued or begged, she did as told. I figured that she had learned this ( and found out a couple years later that she had) so I started doing it too. Works good for me. Less emotional overload too.

    You've already submitted to her spankings and there is no getting out of them now. They will probably never stop so get used to them. All women need a recourse when dealing with their men whether it be the silent treatment, no sex, pouting for days, or spanking. Women will take some action of recourse. Spankings get things out in the open and dealt with and then life presumes. It's over with and she has no reason to harbor ill feelings toward you.

    Just some advice from an old hand.

    Jim

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    1. Thanks for the encouragement. Since the spankings are so few and far between I have learned to tolerate them. The only things is there does seem to be a few sexless days (is that the right word?) after a spanking so in a way its a little bit of a double punishment.

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  6. Jim’s advice above is good. My wife reacts angrily to anything she sees as defiance or challenging her authority. Over the years I have been spanked harder for that than disrespect or even breaking established rules. I think wives look for contrition and remorse and taking responsibility for what you have done and the more they see that the sooner the punishment ends. My wife has told me countless times that when she decides to spank the only thing she want to hear from me is “yes ma’am” and that is what she gets. No begging, no whining and no apologies (until it’s over) When she summons me, my pants come down, I make sure I get my bottom in position for her and keep it there and I take what I have earned not always quietly because she doesn’t expect that but always submissively and obediently. She has come to expect that of me and it makes thing go so much better not only during the spanking but afterward too
    Alan

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    1. Interesting you say "challenging her authority" Now that I think about it it is not defiance or challenging her authority. For decision making I have as much authority as my wife. It seems to be disrespect and carelessness rather than defiance that gets me spanked.

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  7. From the way you've written this latest account, albeit recalling a past spanking, it comes across as you have accepted the fact that your wife will continue to spank you, if the situation merits it. And you know exactly what it will take to trigger another spanking. So really, you are in control of your own fate now, which surely is a big positive for you.

    You seem to worry a lot about feeling embarrassed and humiliated in front of your wife because of the way you look after each spanking. And how things will be between you the following morning, but there's no need for concern.

    If, as you say, your wife is merely intent on correcting your faults, then once the punishment has been administered, the air should have been cleared and she will no doubt be focussed on having done what she sees as her duty.

    And that really is one of the advantages of domestics discipline. Rows that could simmer for days are nipped in the bud immediately.

    The advice above to always be contrite - and to really mean it - is a good one.

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    1. Thanks for your supportive comments. I think I am beginning to understand what I am doing wrong that triggers the spankings. I just need to work on breaking old habits. So far so good.

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  8. To get my bare butt paddled--I have to do worse than forgetting to fill the gas tank--My wife will put up with alot--but once in a while i do go way to far and we both seem to know a bare butt paddling has to make things right--there is little conversation and no argument about when its got to happen-- I shower and get it nakedc as the day i was born--and it hurts---She hears alot of "I'm sorry" and "It hurts" but i never move nor try to stop it My butt hurts but things are fine between us right after----When I got it coming --I got it coming She is a great wife----and i sure have earned it when I get it and its just between us

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  9. Thanks for sharing. What kind of things get you spanked? It wasn't really forgetting to run out of gas that got me spanked as much as it was forgetting, not telling her, not taking responsibility and then blaming her. In the case of almost all my spankings they come when I fail to otherwise accept responsibility for my actions.

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  10. My backside has been paddled, strapped or flogged more times than I can remember for such failings (such as forgetting an errand) - and, once, when her sister was present...

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